In the event you are one of my followers, I've decided to switch things up a bit and have started down the path towards a new journey. While this space felt more like a an online journal, I've shifted my endeavors and have started up a new passion project over at Intentional Optimist. There will … Continue reading Moving
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Walking on Eggshells
"Why doesn't daddy love me?" This was the heartbreaking question that I recalled asking my mother at a very young age during a therapy session this week. The inner child subject has been coming up often, both in my purpose group and now with my therapist, Jane. There is no question that how we are … Continue reading Walking on Eggshells
The Pole Experiment
This past Saturday afternoon, I took a step way outside of my box and into a pole dancing class. If you're wondering how I got here, a few weeks ago during a search through my Mind Body Fitness app for yoga studios, I stumbled upon a studio name that didn't quite sound yoga-like. Most yoga studios have words like Om, Synergy, Lotus, or Buddha in the name, so when Diva is part of the title, it definitely catches your attention. There was no chance I was going to pass up checking this place out, so I clicked on the link to their website and spent the next 20 minutes reading every detail about their pole dance inspired fitness classes. The next thing you know I was signed up for a private lesson. (Private, because I was too much of a chicken to walk into a group class without having any idea what to expect from a place with Diva in the name.)
Listening to the Signs
Part of the purpose work that I've been doing has really had me thinking about the direction that I want to take in my life. Truth be told, the whole reason that I joined up for the group that I'm in is because of this very thing. Between the work in this group, and my … Continue reading Listening to the Signs
The Spy Who Belittled Me
"Making subtle threats or negative remarks with the intent to control you." This is one of the many traits that I keep coming across during my research of emotional abuse, and it's the one that continues to have a hold on me. As I mentioned in my earlier post, I am ready to write about … Continue reading The Spy Who Belittled Me
It Was Not Okay
What I am about to embark on is something that I've been silent about for almost 12 years. I've been too afraid to speak out about the details, and truthfully, didn't even fully realize the impact of what I had been through. In fact, my awareness is still so fresh that I don't have a … Continue reading It Was Not Okay
The Importance of History
It seems strange to be a 40-something woman visiting childhood issues during my therapy sessions, but at the same time it feels just a little bit right. As I talk through some of the memories, I have to push through the barrier of thinking that I'm a grown woman who should be past all of … Continue reading The Importance of History
Do I Really Drink Too Much?
For what has probably been at least a couple of years, I've had what I can only describe as a nagging little voice inside that keeps asking if I'm drinking too much or too often. The more I've tried to ignore the voice, the louder it seems to be getting. Then, last week, two things … Continue reading Do I Really Drink Too Much?