You’ve stumbled upon a blog filled with the goals, struggles, passions, thoughts, projects, memories and complete randomness of a forty-something woman. After hitting 40, well…42 in particular, because it is the answer to the ultimate question of life, the universe, and everything (pulling out my nerd card here), a sense that there is something greater that I should be doing with this life of mine started to grow. I don’t even know if I recognized it that way at first, it felt more like anxiety and frustration over my work life, and I thought it would pass. It didn’t. I started thinking that maybe I was just going through some hormonal shift, which is still entirely possible, but this feeling continues to develop into something more.
Most people would look at me and think I have it all. A wonderful husband, a beautiful home and a solid career – and yes, I am incredibly grateful and very appreciative of what I have. Still, I haven’t been able to shake the feeling that something is missing. I’ve been stuck in a rut just doing the same things day in and day out, and it’s affecting me. As this perpetual hamster wheel keeps spinning, time is passing by – and passing by fast. Call it an early mid-life crisis, but I know that I don’t want to wake up one day and look back at all of the wasted time. I don’t ever want to say “if only I had done (fill in the blank) before it was too late.” I want to make a change. I want to step outside of my box and challenge myself, I want to feel alive.
So what does this have to do with this random blog of mine? While I’m still trying to figure so much of this out, and I really have no idea where this journey will take me, writing demands my attention. It has been a passion of mine since I was a kid, but I have let the hamster wheel keep me from focusing on doing what I love. I may be no good at it, but writing is a need, one that I can no longer ignore. What better time to jump back into it than now?
Oh, and you might be asking “Why Cheesecake & Bourbon?” To that I say, why on earth not? They do happen to be a couple of my favorite indulgences, and while enjoying both together recently, a friend of mine said I should start a blog called Cheesecake & Bourbon, because it described me perfectly. It’s been stuck in my head since – so I took l that as a sign and here I am.
Thanks for giving this little world of mine a look!